some things are better left written
like a slap in the face
that’s just exactly what i felt read a few line from a godamn heavy book *after swearing all over again at my damn skripsi and feeling desperate plus extremely sad* called INTERPERSONAL DINAMIC and found myself drowning on Maslow’s pages…
he said *to his students actually*”Do you plan to be a psychologist?” “Well, yes!’ “Are you in training to be a mute or and inactive psychologist? What’s the adventage of that? That’s not a good path to self-actualization. No, you must want to be a first class psycholoist, meaning the best, the very best you are capable of becoming. If you deliberately plan to be less than you are capable of being, then I warn you that you’ll be deeply unhappy for the rest of your life. You will be evading your own capacities, your own possibilities.”
As if he was talking to me back then. And start to ask myself.. what kind of psychologist im planning to be? or do i even still got that plan to be godamn psychologist? do i have the guts? do i really be able to push myself to reach my peak?
ever heard of The Jonah Complex? It is a partly a justified fear of being torn apart, of losing control, of being shattered and disintegrated, even being killed by the experience. Great emotions after all can in fact overwhelm us.
Truth it is… and i do believe that the biggest fear of mine is a fear of success, thou i never know exactly how’s it gonna be when i succeed… in every aspect of live, love, all!
LORD… let me be what’s best from me… AMIEN…