some things are better left written
entering the state of hesitation
i know i shall figure out what and where am i now but that feeling comes again… the doubt….
fear of not knowing, thou i know that knowing is not something we earn easily… then how am i supposed to know?
is it enough with comfort? is it really what i feel or is it just what i want to feel?
i have no faith for what i am not sure about… still this rush fears me…
cant tell… so i dont wanna go for it… i am living my fears and i
know that it sometimes hurt me at the very end… but everyhurt made me
scare even more! and this vicious circle never end…
i havent get convinced… but was conviction a result? was that true? than i’l never get it then before i start anything that will made a result?
dont wanna loose but feel that there’s nothing to loose…
aaaaaaaaaaarh it sucks!!!!
i hate to be in this situation!!!! i hate my own thought and my anxiety that never leave me!!!